Leader?

Tonight I got to hang out at the beach with a bunch of other program guys and we played some bal and roasted some dogs on our huge man fire. It was all an awesome and beautiful time but what really impacted me the most was Eric's talk at the end. He talked aout leadership here at the camp and how the majority of the leaders were women, and not because he preferred women over men but because they were the ony ones stepping up into the leadership role. He said that if any guys were interested they should start acting like leaders. That's where I began to be challenged. I realy am intersetsed however the story of my life is that of not stepping up and takig that leadership role. However I am beginning to see that ecause of what God has given me it is my responsibility to use that and to be sharing it with others. I know that this is tough but I NEED to be walking by faith daily and trusting God to be working through me and placing my confidence in Him and Him alone and not in myself. It's very hard because not only am I a pretty insecure person but I am also very prideful and don't like to be vulnerable and to look like a fool, which will be very much more likely to happen in a leadership position. So God, tonight I am taking the stand that I am going to begin to step up into the leadership position that You have been preparing me for and I am going to trust and pay that You will keep me humble and remind me of why I am here and Who I am to be serving. Thank you for your love and the example you gave me. Teach me and give me the strength to walk as You walked. Give me an eternal perspective.

Cannon Beach

Today is my last day off for about ten days because I will be starting teacher training here at camp.
I'm going to be getting the curriculum that I will be teaching throughout the summer tomorrow and will be preparing it to teach stating next week. Pray that I will be trusting God with it and will allow Him speak through me over the summer. Pray also that I will be relying on my position in Christ and the security I have in Him and will not be affected by externals.